Today I went to different Vietnamese plant nursery to buy some tropical fruit plant with a lovely couple. Didn't know gardening can be that expensive. Seeing the lovely couple do things together that both of them enjoy makes me happy and a little bit jealous at the same time. I'm acting as an external observer into their relationship and try to learn something from their relationship. What I learned so far is that they gave full respect to the other, whether it's a hobby, a thought, or even a silly joke. Last Friday I left work pretty late and going to crossfit and I was the only one there. The instructor kicked my butt with a crazy workout and since it's one on one, I can't simply cheat anymore and have to do everything correctly. I wanted to throw up right after that workout but he said, you know what, you are getting stronger. Little did I know, I can lift my own weight now!!! I never thought I can lift anything greater than 35lbs dumb bell. Now I can clean and jerk heavy weight. It lefts a lot of bruises and damage on my palm and my neck bone but I love it. Anyway, so I get home around 8pm and was hoping to have dinner with the lovely couple. Dinner was all ready but tonight there's emergency at work so he had to work overtime. She said go ahead and eat first, she's going to drive there and see him. I was so hungry so I eat a small bowl and save some for later so we can all eat together. After a while, she came back and he's still not home yet. We both watched TV and channel surfing to wait for him. I know she was very hungry but she kept looking at her phone waiting for his break so he can call her. It's those image and her action that really touched me. I wanted to go into my room to do some coding, which I should not bring work home, but I wanted to keep her company. When he finally got home, it's almost 12:30 am. She gave him a warm hug and we joked that this is not dinner anymore, it's more of like breakfast :).
Today he woke me up early and asked if I wanted to go to plant nursery with them. I was still dreaming and drooling but I said yes since I don't want to be at home all by myself. I hate being lonely so I always try to be around with people. Thinking back I don't know how I survived college and grad school by myself. I guess I was so naive back then, don't know much about life, people. When we got to the nursery, it was a huge fields of trees, plants. They were like kids in candy store and took off right away. They can tell which tree is which by looking at their leafs. I think they all look the same unless they have the fruit coming out. So I was kind of lost but there were a lot of shade in there. I sat down next to a rock and start browsing through my phone book. I then came across a number that I haven't called her in a while. I don't know why there is a distance between us, a lot of time when I'm sad, I just wanted to talk to her so she can give me advices. She's one of the smartest girl that I ever met, another one was my friend from hs. So I decided to call her, my heart was pounding, very weird feeling like I'm doing something wrong. Oh well, it went to voicemail. Did she change her number? Did she block my number? Thought started going through my head because I kind of lost a friend this way (one day she got really angry at me and hang up for not listening to her advice, from then on I'm not able to reach her anymore). Anyway, later she called me back when I was lying in bed about to take a nap. I was kind of surprise that she called because I remember the last time I saw her, she didn't even look at me in the eyes. I know she had her reasons but today we talked for so long. We were able to catch up a lot of things. I'm very happy that she's very successful now and that just make me happy. We also talked about my brother, how even though he's in the Army but he's having a great time of his life. We were both jealous of that.
Ok enough ranting for today but it's just some thought that I wanted to write down so I don't forget in this busy life stream. I think small happiness moment like this make us human and we learn to love each other more.
- Kiên